World is round and round and round and round

Assalammualaikum....

today, i felt a pleasant feeling after i just realize something. You know these few days i keep feeling sad and all those stuft. Maybe because i lost everything that i have when i was sixteen just like that (vanished). The time you have all the fame because you are a permata. All you previous school friends and teachers look up at you as you are a genius. The time you have all your besfriends (Kamiguys) with you and you don't even felt alone for a sec. The time when you have the best cousins ever to always when for a vacation and family day. The time where you have all your classmates with you and being crazy like what so ever. The time you have the best boyfriend who loves you and keep fulfill your wish for these and that. That time. That Moment

until

you forget who are the one that gives everything to you... without a single thing missing. You are so perfect, beautiful, smart, nice, polite, famous and more...

you forget.

and Allah take away everything in one sec. You don't have any friends here.You have to make a loan in order for you to proceed your study. You have to apply three times just to get your pharmacy course. Your big family keep arguing and have so much problems. Your keep being disappointed in relationship. And you though you were alone....

but you're not

because Allah is there for you


i remember how i used to be alone when i was thirteen. I didn't get straight A for my UPSR because my sciences was B. And no one cares. Most of my friends receive 5As and proceed their studies in KGV,MRSM and SBP. And me... everyday i will walked to SMK Puteri with a heavy heart. Disbelieving why God didn't see my effort. Why? Why? Why?

Allah has a better plans for you.

i was place in a third class where most of my friends were in the second and first class. I don't know anyone and i had so low self esteem. But i study hard and hard and hard believing myself that i can also proved to everyone that i can be success too.. i was alone.. i went to recess alone and i just being friends with all the non malays.. until i was announced to be the best malay student in my class. I got number 4 in class and alhamdullilah more people had accept me more. And i had been chosen to be placed in the first class. i also had become the school prefect and more people started to recognize me including my old primary friends.



and... the better plans i wrote at above was

i had been choose to enter the gifted student center (PERMATApintar Negara, UKM)

nothing can come easily.. it was all because of Allah and your effort.

and i forgot... that bless is actually a test. and a test is actually a bless....

Allah has test me again today...

 i'm alone...

with so many people look down at me as i don't proceed my studies to overseas.....

but remember Najwa...

Allah has a better plans for you like when you were twelve......

so stop being sad... stop complaining... stop asking why... stop regreting.. stop hurting... stop crying.. stop running away from problems... and DON'T STOP BELIEVING...

start hoping.. start praying.. start trusting... start smiling... start believing that Allah is there when nobody were around.....

and trust yourself as your gonna living to the coolest

KAKAK

ASSALAMMUALAIKUM

so, today my dad and i went to UKM to get my SPM Slip, MUET and Foundation's transkrip... heeehh.. along the way.. we have so much conversation and mostly it was about relationship in families... then i told my dad

"Alang, always asked me to send her McDonals during lunch break to her school (SMK KGV) if i'm in Seremban.. but... i never say NO although i know its not compulsory to do it as it was like soooo tiring"
maybe because
when i was in secondary.. i don't have a sister to do it for me... so i don't want my younger sister to feel what i feel....

and i remembered my friend Leiy told me that her brother will give her money when she was in University.... and her brother said
"When i was in University, i don't have a brother to give me money"

well... maybe its just a short sentence but the real meaning is so deep....
being and elder is not easy but it train us to know the real meaning of love and responsibility..

i myself hoping to give the best for my parents and siblings and of course they are the person who keep me to always be living to the coolest....

Cyberjaya University College Of Medical Sciences

ASSALAMMUALAIKUM....

well... i did not post anything yet about CUCMS as i was like totally busy for my first year classes... hmm... it has been like 4 weeks i'm here and Alhamdullilah i had became more comfortable and happy....


if i want to tell one by one about this place it might be the longest post so i just summarize it...

HOUSEMATE
 great housemate... ara (my roomate), kak farhana. thira, yana, nithia.. they really understand me.. although i still feel an awkward moment here but i try to blend in... my room was awesome but its just i can't open my window as i was on the first floor... i get to bath with hot water like everyday and well.... its not good actually....

COURSEMATE
practically all my coursemate are my classmate and are my batchmate... like usual mostly are girls but still the guys are dominating the class... i have a great class rep ADIB and my prettly assistant class rep Kak Farhana.... i usually sit besides Puteri in class... but sometimes i choose places where i can clearly see the LCD and whiteboard....

this is at the root top parking... that building is CUCMS Varsity Lodge

Taman Tasek Cyberjaya... i jog here.. ^^

in the dissection hall... that's a true human leg

DEBATE
i join the debate and alhamdullilah we manage to the final... hmm.. the result will be announced soon but i think that i had embarrassed myself in front of the final year, third year, second year and my own year.. i spoke broken english as i was totally nervous and i even read the script wrongly...

PROBLEMS??
i'm usually not a negative person.. i don't want to make all the problems to prevent me from enjoying myself here but i did feel so sad when i actually don't have friends... yes... i did have thousands of people who i can be friendly with...but i still searching for a person called friends... a person at least i can trust... i can share many things with her....

there were some tragedy happend here... i felt so sad as i was the youngest here and people treat me like this... i'm young please don't do this to me..... i never tried to create problems with anyone... why i'm always being blamed for someone else problem.....

i just hope that Allah will always be with me.. i know my parents were so worried that i will feel sad here... but each time i talked to them i will tell them how happy i am here but actually... i just wanna go to UKM back.... i want k7.... i want kamiguys......

but.. i met a new friend... he's from medic... well... we have so much similarities and i never actually become so close to someone before just in a short period...

i believe CUCMS will make me living to the coolest

My Degree Moment

Assalammualaikum.....

so, alhamdullilah... i'm gonna proceed my degree this Sunday as UKM optometric student..

i was kinda sad because they were so many effort that both my parents and me had done in order for me to get into Pharmacy courses.. i did receive my pointer sem 2 above 3.5 but because of my first pointer was not very good then the total amount of my pointer is less than 3.5...

and i had been offered to do this course for my degree.... 

at first i was like Whatever... just do this course and proceed with life.. i feel like too lazy to think too much about this problem...

then suddenly my dad asked me whether i wanted to proceed my study in private university in order to have degree in Pharmacy... we can do loan with MARA.....

i was sad... why i always be the burden of my family.. my sister is way lucky than me.. she receive JPA's scholar, do degree in what she wants.... but me? wasting my parents money for private....

what's wrong with you girl? stop being a burden....

my dad and i went to CUCMS in Cyberjaya to look at the university... it was a nice, beautiful and exclusive university....yeaa....and the price are also nice...

the student over there had started their degree last two weeks and if i joined...i will not have my orintation day and so on....

i will never gain any memory starting degree like other people....

this sunday is my ukm registration day... but i just feel empty...

i just want to feel excited where parents send their children on their first day of university...

but me?

why can't i be like them.... why i must be different?.....

Allah...please be with me....i really need you....i'm tired of crying everyday.... 

PERMATApintar in memories....

Assalammualaikum...

19th August 2013.... the last date i stand on PERMATApintar Complex... i still can remember the very first day i registered myself here on 17th January 2011.... Permata had changed me a lot.. they are too much experience, memories and lesson that i learned form  here..
i learn to be more independent..i learn that family is everything.. i learn that friend still exist. i learn that the sky is the a limit...

i drove my car to the main gate and i cried.... i cried as hard as i can in the car as all the memories just flash back.... i thanked Allah for choosing me out of thousands 95's babes to be here in PERMATA...

i believe that i have my own path and a new journey will begin just within a few weeks more. i'm going to proceed my degree and insyAllah i'm ready...

a shy, small, unnoticeable person like me had change into a more confident, believe in herself person.. i had experience been love and hate by teachers, i had experience friendship within classmates and batches, i had been experience in the top and below, i had experience the meaning of Love...


although PERMATA are not being viewed by me through this eyes but i still can see them through my heart...

PERMATApintar is gonna living to the coolest...

RESEARCH IN UNIVERSITY MALAYA

ASSALAMMUALAIKUM

So, i went to UM to do my research title The extraction of oil from the seed of Carica Papaya in making of cosmetics. i wanted to study about its characteristic and how i can turn it into a cosmetic cream. it was fun and i only required to complete this research for 4 days. two days already complete and now i just need another 2 days.

at first, i took KTM from UKM to Bandar tasek selatan with fakhrul syamil my dear ex researchmate. he wanted to go back home so i ask him to accompany me. i miss our old times together.. go to HUKM every week to do research when we were in form 5. i hope he will be a great doctor someday just like he wanted. and of course, i am trying hard to be the next pharmacist experts in cosmetic and drugs.

when we arrive in BTS, i was like totally bored. i walked alone, eat alone and window shop alone. i waited for my father to arrive from HUKM to pick me up to UM. and look i suddenly saw.... flags.. haha

its NEGERI SEMBILAN'S fLAg beside JOHOR'S FLAG.. suddenly reminds me of Amirul Ashraf

then, after the long wait... my dad arrives with my cousin and we went for lunch. then finally i reach UM

 i did had a dream to forward my study here but i guess UKM still are the best for me. i start to do my research with my mentor, the head department of Pharmacist in UM..

i hope i can finish my research in time and then i can start to finish my report.. yeaaa.. and of course, this research thing really make me living to the coolest

Kolej Mara Banting... good bye i guess

ASSALAMMUALAIKUM.....

So, like what you guys can see i got an offer to do economics in Kolej Mara Banting (KMB) and will forward my studies in United Kingdom.. and the registration is on 3rd of July..

it means... next week!!! next week people!!!.. should i go or not?

i have two reason why i don't wanna go

1. i don't have any idea what is economics?????
2. i don't wanna live in a sekolah asrama penuh lagi... i'm tired of the rules yang asyik tekan student sana sini... i don't mind following the rules but please respect the student.. kitaorang manusia jugak...

hmm... then,people cakap rugi giler... dah ada peluang nak fly!!!....tapi ada yg cakap... xpe stay je asasi pintar... buat farmasi....

i'm scared...pointer pun mcm nak tak nak je... i'm trying as hard as i can to study.. i don't know what's wrong with me but then....sepanjang i study...asasi la result mcm ape je... i wanna change... i don;t want my past to hunt me... start a new life...

well, looking at the KMB group in facebook make me wanna join that programme.. but then.. i know i wanna do pharmacy and i had to stick with it... apa pun rezeki kat mana2... insyallah...

apapun...always living to the coolest

Why me... again?

ASSALAMMUALAIKUM...

ALLAH..... He had test me again... and i am not sure whether its an answer or a test... but then i had been called by the UKM Academics. She/He told me that i can't take Pharmacy as my course and i was extremely  SAD.... allah knows how it felts... i had let go three of my offers just to stay here and i receive this kind of news.

I am sad... but i think that sad is just not helping...

Even regret is not the  best solution..

I just don't know whether Pharmacy is the best or not. I did istikharah but i don't know whether i had been answered or not..... but i'm writing letters to the director hopping and begging so my course will be consider back..

Last week was a really what we call a punching back. When i started to punch back all this sadness, i felt more sad.. therefore.. if faith said that i had to live with it.. than i will make this sadness bow to me and not i'm the one who bow towards it. If these sadness want to follow me.. than i will not be running but i will stay and stand high until they can't catch me.

I started not to cry like what i used to do. I'm a big girl now and i had to live to the coolest

Drop by just to say

Assalammualaikum....


Before i started to finish up my chemistry lab report, i just wanna say...

I'm BORED.. its just a plain old me doing the same thing everyday... it is the exactly the same feeling i felt when i was in SMK PUTERI... its like about 3 years ago... everyday, this Asasi Pintar started to become Asasi Puteri... with my classmates all girls and one boy (and he's from SMKS Alam Shah) it was like totally bored... but my mission here is to study...study and study... waiting to enter degree this September..INSYALLAH

I'm HAPPY.....as i just finish up my interview for Pharmacist yesterday.. yeaa.. its in VISTANA hotel and i am one of the babies as i am one of the youngest... yea.. 18 is quite young to be interviewed for Degree... but it was kinda positive and good.. and i really hope all the panels accept me for their faculty.

I'm EXCITED.... to see Ashwin Ganesh came back from United State after his 9 months studying their... highlight the dying part not the study.. haha... but he did not give me any souvenirs and i really wanna chock him out... just kidding... nahh. he did gave me 1 dollar... it equals to RM3 if i'm not mistaken...

so.. its just a plain old me looking for the coolest

MARA : EKONOMI

ASSALAMMUALAIKUM

alhamdullilah...syukur again to Allah... he gave me another rezeki for today. i had been offered to do IB economics in Kolej Mara Banting.

 This is a miracle for me as i finally got a chance to go oversea. i know i have to work hard as success will not just roll over in front of us right?.. but then i got confuse whether i should do economics or stay in UKM to wait for pharmacist..i'm so scared if i did a wrong choices..i don't want to repeat the same mistake again.. no way... i know Allah give me so many happiness because he want to test me. Its a test and i must always focus and not be so proud of myself. i am sad to see few of my friends did not get the Mara offer. i know that Allah had decide the best for them. Although all of them receive straight A's in SPM but Allah know his plan. Allah, please give me direction.. please guide me as i need you the most right now... i want to do pharmast but i also want to go oversea... insyAllah i will try my best in everything...

UPU : ASASI SAINS UITM

ASSALAMMUALAIKUM...

ALHAMDULLILAH.... THANK YOU TO ALLAH AGAIN WHO HAD GIVE ME ANOTHER REZEKI FOR THIS JUMAAT... I AM SO THANKFUL TO HIM... I GOT THE OFFERED TO DO SCIENCE FOUNDATION IN UNIVERSITY TECHNOLOGY MARA (UITM)... MANY OF MY FRIENDS ALSO GOT THE OFFER THERE AND IF I ACCEPT THIS OFFER I MIGHT MEET THEM AGAIN.. ALTHOUGH BEFORE THIS I REALLY WANTED TO GO TO UNIVERSITY MALAYA, MAYBE THIS IS THE BEST FOR ME... BUT I'M STILL CONSIDERING ABOUT UKM AS IF I GET ACCEPTED IN PHARMACY..I WILL BE ONE OF THE YOUNGEST STUDENT FOR DEGREE THIS YEAR. I CAN SKIP MANY YEARS COMPARE TO MY BATCH... BUT I STILL NEED TO FIND THE RIGHT ANSWER FOR MY FUTURE. ALLAH, I HOPE YOU WILL GIVE THE BEST ANSWER FOR ME... <3

Temuduga FARMASI Ijazah Sarjana Muda Dengan Kepujian UKM

ASSALAMMUALAIKUM...

ALHAMDULLILAH.... PRAISED TO ALLAH THE MIGHTY WHO MAKE ME SMILE AND CRY TODAY.. I AM SO HAPPY TO RECEIVED THIS RESULT AND HOPING TO GIVE THE BEST SHOT FOR THE INTERVIEW.. AT FIRST, MY ROOMATE HAMIMAH ARIF GOT A TEXT SAYING SHE HAD BEEN CHOOSEN FOR THE INTERVIEW FOR DIETITION. I'M HAPPY FOR HER AND I WAS SO NERVOUS WHETHER I GOT IT OR NOT. SO I TRY TO FILL MY MY IC NUMBER...

But the result was unexpected

i was sad at first. i did cried and i call my parents.. i felt so sad....but then my classmate Ameerah came to my room and told me to check using another web as she had been in my shoe earlier.. ao i tried

AND....

ALHAMDULLILAH....thank you ALLAH...

i am happy and i will try my very best for the interview. In the age of 18 to go for degree was a luck.. i maybe will be the youngest for that interview but it doesn't mean i'm the weakest...

i will try my best.. insyallah.... to become the next pharmacist

INTERVIEW INSTITUT PENDIDIKAN GURU 2013

ASSALAMMUALAKUM...

SO TODAY I WENT TO IPG TEKNIK BANDAR ENSTEK FOR AN INTERVIEW. IT WAS A BIG CAMPUS AND NEW. MY AUNT WORKS THERE AS A MATHEMATIC LECTURER AND IT REALLY HELPS AS MY FATHER AND I WERE HAVING PROBLEM WITH THE DIRECTION... SO I MET SOME FRIENDS...ACTUALLY THERE ARE ALL MY OLD FRIENDS.. I MET JAY AND EEZ.. JAY IS SAM E WITH ME IN PERMATA AND EEZ IS MY EX CLASSMATE FROM SMK PUTERI...

ALRITE... WHEN I CAME AT THE TUTORIAL ROOM.. THERE ARE NO REGISTRATION PLACE OR ANYTHING.. JUST YOUR NAME HAD BEEN POSTED ON THE DOOR. SO, JUST LOOK AT THE NAME AND SIGN IT. I ENTER THE TUTORIAL A ROOM AND READY FOR AN OBJECTIVE TEST. THE TEST TOOK ABOUT 30 MINUTES ONLY WITH 135 QUESTION. YOU HAVE TO ANSWER IT QUICKLY OR YOU MAY NOT FINISH IT. THE QUESTION WAS OK LAH.. HAHA..JUST LOGICAL THINKING... THEN THE REAL INTERVIEW TAKE PLACE...

SO I HAD BEEN DIVIDED INTO SMALL GROUP.. LIKE ABOUT 6-8 PEOPLE.. I WAS NERVOUS AND SHIVERING LIKE  HELL.. I PRAY AND PRAY HOPING THAT EVERYTHING WILL BE FINE.. INSYALLAH...

SO, WE HAD TO WATCH A SHORT VIDEO. MY VIDEO IS ABOUT PENGAJARAN DAN PEMBELAJARAN DALAM BAHASA ARAB. I WAS STUNT. WHAT?? ARAB? I GET A "D" FOR MY ARAB FOR MY UPKK.. HOW CAN  I TALK ABOUT ARAB??. THEN, WE HAD TO INTRODUCE OURSELF. I SAY MY NAME, WHERE I CAME FROM, MY PARENTS OCCUPATION AND WHAT IS MY SCHOOL. IF YOU'RE FATHER IS A LECTURER IN ANY IPG..MAYBE YOU WILL GET A HIGHER CHANCES.. THEN, THE DISCUSSION ABOUT THE VIDEO STARTS. I TRIED MY BEST TO GIVE MY OPINION AND SUGGESTION. ALTHOUGH I DON'T KNOW WHETHER IT IS RIGHT OR WRONG...BELASAH JE..JANJI NAMPAK CONFIDENT.. HAHA

BUT WHAT INTERESTED ME IS THAT THERE IS A GUY NAME ZULHILMI FROM KUALA PILAH. HE IS VERY SMART GUY AND LOOKED DEDICATED. I KNOW HE IS REALLY INTERESTED TO BECOME A TEACHER. HE HAS A GOOD LEADERSHIP CHARACTERISTIC AND NICE.. I WAS KINDA JEALOUS AT HIM AT FIRST.. BUT THEN WHEN THE INTERVIEW FINISH, HE TALKED TO ME..

I WAS LIKE...... "HE TALK TO ME PEOPLE!!"

HE SAID THAT I WAS GOOD BACK THERE. I LOOKED CONFIDENT AND HE WAS LIKE INTERESTED ABOUT PERMATAPINTAR...

I FORGOT TO ASK HIS PREVIOUS SCHOOL, OR HIS REAL NAME..OR HIS FB..OR HIS PHONE NUMBER...ARRR..MAN.....WHAT A WASTE!!!... I JUST TOLD HIM.."ADD ME !".. HOW CAN HE FIND ME?.. MAYBE WITH ALLAH'S WILL, NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE...HAHA..

I AM NOT LIKE IN LOVE WITH HIM OR WHAT...LIKE..EWWW... I JUST WANT TO KNOW HIM BETTER AS HIS LIFE WAS KINDA INTERESTING AND I REALLY WANNA GET TO KNOW HIM..

SO ZULHILMI, IF YOU READ MY BLOG, I TRIED TO SEARCH YOU IN FACEBOOK BUT FAIL. SO, IF YOU SEE THIS POST..YEA..I'M THAT PERMATA PINTAR GIRL AND I REALLY LIKE TO KNOW YOU...^_^...LEAVE A COMMENT WILL YA!!...HAHA

THERE IS A PERSON WHO ADMIRES ME... ^^

assalammualaikum..

today i had my first leadership class and it was awesome.. my lecturer Dr Fazilah was the best and she rocks.. we all had given 3 papers and need to write about three person that you admire as he/she has the leadership skill and characteristic.. the first one is yourself, the person who sit next to you and anyone you admire...

so this is what i wrote about me.. ^^

Seorang individu yang mempunyai sifat simpati yang tinggi. Tegas menegakkan pendirian. Seorang yang penyayang dan amat sensitif. Tidak boleh melihat orang lain susah dan banyak bercakap. Melontarkan idea tetapi mudah mempercayai seseorang..

I GUESS THAT IS WHO I AM... BUT LOOK WHAT PEOPLE THINK ABOUT ME

Lahir di negeri sembilan. seorang yang lembut dan naif. seorang pendengar setia. hati yang baik dan berkeyakinan diri. seorang yang tabah dan kuat serta berdedikasi. rajin dan gemar mencuba sesuatu yang baru. kuat makan. kecil dan kasihan

OK..HAHA..SHE IS MY BESTFRIEND.. AND YOU KNOW HOW THEY SAID ABOUT US... YEA.. THANK YOU!!!

and look. i receive one from anonymous that write about the person they admire.. 

Tidak malu untuk mengekspresikan diri. Lantang menyuarakan pendapat. berkebolehan bermain piano. kecil molek berhaya. suka buat lawak..

AWW.. SO SWEET.. HAHA.. THANK YOU VERY MUCH..

I FEEL MUCH BETTE RIGHT NOW.. although i did not receive as many as AHMAD ASHRAF receive but at least i know a person know that i can lead. a person believes in me.. sometimes we did not realize that there is a person appreciate us..

Interview JAD-MARA

Assalammualakum..

hey, i just want to share with you guys about my experience having an interview for JAD-MARA program. i applied after receiving the trial results as they only required your trial results. Make sure you applied it before you took the spm as the interview will be before the spm result. So, on march you will received an email if you manage to go for the interview. The program is for engineering only. in my time, they only looking for the mechanical and electrical engineering. you will be study in Kolej in BERANANG.. you will do 3 years diploma and if you had a good result then you will fly to JAPAN to proceed with degree..

so..

What should you do?
1. Bring your original certificate!! i saw some of the student didn't bring it and the officer were like "what? you should bring it"
2. Read more on engineering. Why you want to do engineering in Japan??
3. They will ask you to answer a question during the interview. They gave you a white board and a marker. You have to answer on the spot. I got question about draw the tangent graph and  factorization. But you can't use the calculator.
4. They will ask you if you receive another scholarship, will you go for it or stay with this JAD program?..
5. and.. there are some exams for 1 hour if i'm not mistaken. there is physics, add maths, chemist and english.

GOOD luck to you all..

IQ TEST MARA 2013

Assalammualaikum..

okie..so probably, people who read this post must looking for iq test right?.. yea.. i know that most probably students like us are kinda shock as we must sit for this paper at first.. i just took that test this morning... so i'm gonna help you to be prepare ok.. well, i am not giving "soalan bocor" or i will get caught and be sent to jail.. i just gonna help..and dear mara people " i don't even have the marking scheme so please don't sue me...^_^

1. The test will be about i hour time with 100 questions.. They have English, Maths and Logic thinking..
2. Don't worry..no add maths or chemist or physics.. etc.. just an IQ test. well. i think it was an EQ test.. not really an IQ test..
3. Understand how you use your computer.. how to shut down.email..desktop..
4. how to be a good leader (Read more on leadership)
5. numbers.. sequence something like that..just think logic ok?
6. You also need to do a short essay... like 50 words only..not more.. its about your plan for another 5 years coming.
7. 50 question in English and another 50 is in Malay
8. Yes, you can bring calculator but not gadget like smart phone..
9. I suggest to you to do it fast. if you can't answer the question then move to the next. Don't stick to it. You don't have time for that.
10. Read the question carefully as there are many tricks.. i really mean it

The time is not enough.. trust me..100 questions in 60 minutes.. herrgg...but luckly i manage to do it all..

so GOOD LUCK .. and pray for me ok?..so that i can pass this test and go for the interview.
GANBATEE!!!