so, alhamdullilah... i'm gonna proceed my degree this Sunday as UKM optometric student..
i was kinda sad because they were so many effort that both my parents and me had done in order for me to get into Pharmacy courses.. i did receive my pointer sem 2 above 3.5 but because of my first pointer was not very good then the total amount of my pointer is less than 3.5...
and i had been offered to do this course for my degree....
at first i was like Whatever... just do this course and proceed with life.. i feel like too lazy to think too much about this problem...
then suddenly my dad asked me whether i wanted to proceed my study in private university in order to have degree in Pharmacy... we can do loan with MARA.....
i was sad... why i always be the burden of my family.. my sister is way lucky than me.. she receive JPA's scholar, do degree in what she wants.... but me? wasting my parents money for private....
what's wrong with you girl? stop being a burden....
my dad and i went to CUCMS in Cyberjaya to look at the university... it was a nice, beautiful and exclusive university....yeaa....and the price are also nice...
the student over there had started their degree last two weeks and if i joined...i will not have my orintation day and so on....
i will never gain any memory starting degree like other people....
this sunday is my ukm registration day... but i just feel empty...
i just want to feel excited where parents send their children on their first day of university...
but me?
why can't i be like them.... why i must be different?.....
Allah...please be with me....i really need you....i'm tired of crying everyday....
