World is round and round and round and round

Assalammualaikum....

today, i felt a pleasant feeling after i just realize something. You know these few days i keep feeling sad and all those stuft. Maybe because i lost everything that i have when i was sixteen just like that (vanished). The time you have all the fame because you are a permata. All you previous school friends and teachers look up at you as you are a genius. The time you have all your besfriends (Kamiguys) with you and you don't even felt alone for a sec. The time when you have the best cousins ever to always when for a vacation and family day. The time where you have all your classmates with you and being crazy like what so ever. The time you have the best boyfriend who loves you and keep fulfill your wish for these and that. That time. That Moment

until

you forget who are the one that gives everything to you... without a single thing missing. You are so perfect, beautiful, smart, nice, polite, famous and more...

you forget.

and Allah take away everything in one sec. You don't have any friends here.You have to make a loan in order for you to proceed your study. You have to apply three times just to get your pharmacy course. Your big family keep arguing and have so much problems. Your keep being disappointed in relationship. And you though you were alone....

but you're not

because Allah is there for you


i remember how i used to be alone when i was thirteen. I didn't get straight A for my UPSR because my sciences was B. And no one cares. Most of my friends receive 5As and proceed their studies in KGV,MRSM and SBP. And me... everyday i will walked to SMK Puteri with a heavy heart. Disbelieving why God didn't see my effort. Why? Why? Why?

Allah has a better plans for you.

i was place in a third class where most of my friends were in the second and first class. I don't know anyone and i had so low self esteem. But i study hard and hard and hard believing myself that i can also proved to everyone that i can be success too.. i was alone.. i went to recess alone and i just being friends with all the non malays.. until i was announced to be the best malay student in my class. I got number 4 in class and alhamdullilah more people had accept me more. And i had been chosen to be placed in the first class. i also had become the school prefect and more people started to recognize me including my old primary friends.



and... the better plans i wrote at above was

i had been choose to enter the gifted student center (PERMATApintar Negara, UKM)

nothing can come easily.. it was all because of Allah and your effort.

and i forgot... that bless is actually a test. and a test is actually a bless....

Allah has test me again today...

 i'm alone...

with so many people look down at me as i don't proceed my studies to overseas.....

but remember Najwa...

Allah has a better plans for you like when you were twelve......

so stop being sad... stop complaining... stop asking why... stop regreting.. stop hurting... stop crying.. stop running away from problems... and DON'T STOP BELIEVING...

start hoping.. start praying.. start trusting... start smiling... start believing that Allah is there when nobody were around.....

and trust yourself as your gonna living to the coolest